moving on

i fucked up. horribly. like 'i need to drastically change my outlook on life and the way i do things' fucked up. i'm teetering on the edge of losing someone i care a lot about because i'm too much of an idiot to realize the repercussions of my actions, however well-intentioned they may have been. i think though that i finally know the true meaning of the phrase "love is blind." at least for me it means that when you fall in love it puts a blindfold over your face and it's like you're walking through the dark having no god damned clue what you're doing until the one person it matters for rips it off your face at which point it becomes pretty evident. i just hope that whatever is left can be salvaged and rebuilt into a friendship that will last.